Ambrose Kibuuka, Uganda

My silence never means indifference. Since the summer school ended I have been reflecting on the content, context, method and outcome of the Yogya experience. The winds of my thoughts have meandered in several directions, leaving behind them scattered heaps of personal opinions, positions and questions. At this point I must confess, especially to Ram, that despite the ever gathering heaps, I decided not to complicate or even problematize the dunes in any way. In so doing, had hoped to find a perpetual refuge in Leonardo Da Vinci’s dictum, “simplicity is the ultimate sophistication”. Each dune of opinion, position or questions appeared to be an isolated and accomplished entity, not needing to be connected to any other or the others. I dint foresee a possibility, let alone the need to knit any common strands across such pillages of thoughts. Hence, the long silence. Little did I realize however, that I was only engaging myself in an unsustainable and short-live self-deception! For at the core of the marrow that is not me. All it would take was just one event that would ignite the true Ambrose. And sooner than later, that event came in the form of the bloody riots that gripped Kampala and a few other parts of Central Uganda on the 10^th 11^th and 12^th of September 2009. The moment for me to contemplate where Yogya meets reality had come. In the same fashion like engineers test “where the rubber meets the road”.

What made it even the more impossible for me to continue in the silent mode is the fact that as a dictate of circumstances, I was not a passive observer; I was a victim-participant in the riot event myself. On that nasty Thursday afternoon, Kampala the capital city was rocked by gunfire. By 17:00 hours Doreen and I (our wedding is on 28^th Nov 2009) were still stark in town trying to figure out how to cross the city to reach our home – which is just a stone throw away from Kabaka’s (king) palace and the official headquaters of Buganda kingdom, which was the party “at war with the central government of Uganda. As you can imagine, all roads accessing this area were sealed off and were not accessible by car. It was a frontline zone. So we had to ramble on foot through the city suburbs until we made it home to meet our son Manuel Antonio at 20:30hrs. Only his innocent smile was the naïve anchor of a thought that things would soon get better. That night, for the first time since January 26 1986, my ears became familiar again with trans-night gunfire right in the neighborhood. We stayed indoors the whole of Friday following the developments live on television – thanks to the courageous frontline reporters. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. The wreckage, the intolerance, the insanity, the insensitivity, the animalism, the savagery, the desperation, the anger, the brutality, the pain, the fear, the unreason, the apathy and the frustration.

At this point so many questions were fleeting through my mind. It is these questions that reminded me of my unfinished business with the summer school experience. The idea of Promoting Pluralism Knowledge Programme was a spot-on dream. For the carnage we witnessed and the “calm but tense situation” we currently live under today, are simply a natural consequence of the perpetual negation of dialogue and continuous engagement among the diverse groupings (religious, ethnic, political etc.) in Uganda. The broad project of scramble for Africa through colonization had the effect of pasting (from paste) ethnic groupings that were at starkly different levels of development and self organization and knew nothing about each other, into an amorphous geographical entity labeled “Uganda” (Of course a naming that was inspired by that of Buganda kingdom). Since the departure of the British in 1962 (independence) there have not been much deliberate efforts by governments or civil society players to promote continuous dialogue and other forms of engagement among the various diversities. A superficial kind of tolerance is what has kept the country stitched together with very delicate strands, highly characterized by prejudice, suspicion, soul-deep insecurity, and fear. Emerging from my reflections about the lessons of the summer school, its is abundantly clear to me now that just as knowledge begets confidence and an inner sense of security, ignorance creates fear and a defensive feeling of powerlessness. The violence – like that I witnessed in Kampala over those fateful three days – is nothing but the ultimate expression of a deep sense of powerlessness. Violence in any form is a reactive admission that one’s human capability’s toolbox has run out of tools – so they resort to excessive animalism. And the question here is: how endowed is that person’s toolbox? Let me explain this point below.

When following the riot events on TV I saw the spokesman for the national army (Uganda People’s Defense Forces) being hit and wounded by a small group of rioters who he had stopped to ask to remove the burning tires from the middle of the road. Although this General was well armed, he did not shoot at those who were throwing stones at him. He simply drove off and went to a nearby medical centre for treatment. Perhaps a soldier with a lower level of capabilities (less exposed, less reasoning, obsessed with crushing those who challenge him etc.) would have responded otherwise. As fate would have it, last week I just met this General’s wife who invited me to do a workshop for students and teachers in a remote school where she is the Headteacher. Through conversation it became apparent to me why the character of the man. The books he reads (such as emotional intelligence, his exposure, and life philosophy) say a lot about his composition. I have no doubt that if all the other armed personnel who were deployed to manage the riots were equally devoid of high capabilities deficiency, we would avoid the high level of deaths and damage. Likewise, the excesses we witnessed on the part of the rioters would not have arisen in the first place.

Bringing Yogya to Uganda

The Yogya experience especially in terms content, is perhaps what Uganda needs at this material time. Let me dream a bit here. If I had the means I would initiate a programme that uses modern ICTs to enable every Ugandan learn about and experience the various cultures in Uganda and the history of the making of Uganda. There is too much prejudice based on tribal and religious identities which is built on misinformation. What does not help things is the fact that we are largely an oral society. Although in many regards our history is well documented, most Ugandans do not read. The rumor mill dominates the scene, and most times politicians churn the divisive rumors so they can divide and rule.

I would blend my bias at the summer school (youth and identity formation) with Jochum’s workshop proposal to develop a programme that engages young people in traveling around the country to live with and learn about other ethnic communities during the long vacation ( normally the vacation is 8 months before starting university). I envisage that after a period of 10 years, the young professionals in the country will have a very different mindset about being Ugandan. Such domestic tourism will also entail intensive workshops which bring the content of the summer school in appropriate ways. It must all be LEARNING THROUGH FUN. We need to find creative ways of building more sustainable communities by minimizing FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) especially among the young generation.

From a personal stance, the riot event served to massage my ego. Why? Earlier on, in the month of April, I had published an article (still downloadable on www.hcdc.ug ) under the radical title: “Make youth priority or forget development”. Some people thought I was just being alarmist. But after that event everyday in the newspapers someone is writing about the same. The president himself has on many occasions pointed at the role widespread youth unemployment played in those riots. My argument is very simple, by virtue of demographic dictates; any development discourse that leaves out the voices of young people is likely to backfire. Like the title of my workshop proposal at the summer school goes, for me young people are “Silent voices” but “Salient voices”. But never mind, am slated to make a presentation to a Parliamentary select committee on youth employment and my point will be made. And definitely, it will be influenced by the Yogya experience.

In a conversation I had with Ute Seela when she came to Uganda, I remember she asked me what it means to be Ugandan. She wondered, what is the common characteristic that distinguishes one as a Ugandan? Believe you me, I was at a loss. I dint have much to say except concoct a few meandering stories like I was attempting a question in a make-or- break exam. But the point was home anyway. Could Uganda be a society in identity crisis? Apart from the geographical boundaries and national laws, does it mean anything to be Ugandan?

The Summer School People

Now, on a lighter note, these were the images of the Summer School people in the eyes of Ambrose:

Anthony: Oh wasn’t he a lovely roommate! I think he was the most valued customer of the dry cleaners. Always minded how clean his shirt was. No one could save him from obsession with Hugo’s.

Yochum: What an amazing capacity to keep the balance between fun and serious work. Call him “The Discoverer”. He was the Columbus on the team. Ask him about any corner of Yogyakarta and it’s like you have clicked Google world!

Ram: Hmn…, this is a rare guy. Hard on issues but soft on people. He always bangs his issue on the table – take it or leave it, but you know it!

Ayu: Bannange (oh my God), how does she manage to sustain the smile on the face? Kudos and maximum respect to her for all the wonderful trips and the fun we had everywhere.

Ivana: when she talked it felt like watching a Serbian opera. But be careful not to be too much in her company otherwise, before you know it, you are speaking like her, at least that’s true for me. I think she will make a good professor.

Rukia: You must be a genius to tell whether she is a conservative or liberal religious corporate young lady. ‘Enigma’ would be her middle name.

Habibah: You mean the girl next door? Don’t mistake her silence for… Her humor is usually in the silent mode but readily available on demand. It’s just a click away. It relieves to know that.

Tabitha: You must have a serious mental disorder if the thought of her doesn’t invoke in you instant sentiments of anti-universalism and anti-cosmopolitanism.

Henk: I don’t know why in my mind his face is fused with that of Albert Einstein. The latter invented the formula E=MC² used to manufacture the bomb that shattered Hiroshima. Will the former lead the crusade of the rest of nature against humans?

Fatimah: For a full month I’ve been struggling to learn how she dances, all in vain. If you think am offside, ask any body who showed up for Republic on that historical night. If she goes through life without featuring on the Bollywood charts – that will be another case of eagle who thought he was chicken.

Yanekke: Sorry, I mean Princess Chantica. I needed another week to complete my research on “Why the Princess was the Custodian of the Common Room: A Case Study of Summer School 2009”. I envy her passion for photographs.

Annette: Check the advanced dictionary for the word paradox, then you will know what am grappling with. Is she a quiet or not? Is she tough or not? Is she cheeky or not? Is she a comedian or not? May be just a people person!

Veena: Reminds me, the “Veni, Vidi, V…” stuff. Pity, the summer school ended too soon. We needed more karaoke nights, birthday Dos, and a return of the Republican. Amazing how she can hide the counsel in her.

Chei: You want my day one reaction? Honestly? “Hmn…this ka-girl who spits English like water rapids, is she from Indonesia?” If you really want to comprehend what my point, just try to imagine the summer school without her. Or would you be reading these lines?

Carolyn: Forget about her session on identity. Let’s focus on her identity. Have you heard this line before? “I come from the world”. She is the embodiment of the old wisdom behind human beings having two ears and one mouth: to listen as twice as we speak. If your mama beats her listening with patience, I guarantee to refund the birthday gift you gave me.

Ruchika: They should have brought more of this species to the summer school. Jolly good fellas like her make you forget about the all too annoying sugar en pepper in every food stuff you test.

Herman: He reminds me of my workmate. Quite until provoked

Zainal: He reminds me of the Governor of the Bank of Uganda. These guys look alike.

Serene: people, this is a crucial lesson. Be careful what you name your child, for it may manifest in reality. Serenity is her trademark. How sustainable it is, is another question. And if “Smiley eyes” is not catered for in wikipedia, somebody better advise them to take up the Serene case study.

Vyta: I thought I was the only one obsessed with youth empowerment until I met her.

Kevin: Man, he sent me thinking real hard about philosophy. He doesn’t just dream about impossibles. He actually makes them happen. If you thought Kung Fu was a far-fetched thing for summer school, now wait for his workshop on a romantic interface with the physical. Or will he be my son’s mentor!!

Jimmy: Mr. president. What can I say? He just makes fun funny. If he were a doctor, he would make medicine sick. Photographic imperialism is his political philosophy.